Do you ever feel like a train that has been completely off routed from its tracks? Ask me exactly one year ago today and I'd have told you that, a-Level results depending, I would become an English Literature student, eventually to do a PGCE and become a secondary school teacher. I had a clear route planned.
I'm panicky by nature, and having a plan helps me to feel more confident and assured.
A week before breaking up for Easter, after weeks of tears under the duvet, and forcing myself to commute the 30 mile journey to and from uni, I decided that mentally, I couldn't fake it any longer.
I wasn't 'living the uni dream', much the opposite in fact. It was making me ill. I hated my course and what I thought would make me happy was making me more miserable than I'd ever imagined possible.
But what else would I do? Is there really any option after Sixth form but uni? Clearly yes, but when you are contemplating telling your parents that you're thinking about leaving your degree, you think that perhaps the only way you will be successful is to have one.
But guess what. I did it. I walked in, my nails bitten down to little stubs, I was so scared and withdrew from my course. I was scared of leaving the only structure to life I'd ever known. Education.
I've tried writing this post 100 times over. Because I'm sure most of you will have realised by now that I'm not at university anymore. I've hinted at it lots, but never came outright and mentioned it, not because I'm embarrassed or am living in denial. But I didn't know what to say. I still don't.
Am I saying don't go to university? Of course not. Am I saying do what makes you happiest? Of course. At the end of the day your life is precious and at risk of sounding incredibly morbid, you never know how long you've got left. Education is not everything. You could be the most well-educated human on the planet and still live a miserable life.
I'm not ruling out the option of getting a degree, it's definitely something I'd like to achieve in my lifetime. If not directly related to a career option, then just for my own personal enjoyment.
So what happens if you wake up one morning, and feel as though you've completely lost your way? You take every single second as it comes and remember, everything happens for a reason.
Your loved ones will be there for you no matter what. And when everything feels like it's going wrong, remember the times where it was right and that there are plenty more to come.